#OH BUT thoughts...

[inkshadow]

"you don't think i know that?!" alex nearly screams back, only managing to withhold a few decibels so that she doesn't offend mari that way. tears very rarely surface for the girl but standing there, being pelted with so much negativity and lack of faith mari has in herself, seem to be enough for them to itch at the corner of her eyes. of course it hurts to see mari berate herself like this, still scared of stepping into sunlight because it would be too bright for someone who has rarely seen it. of course it stings when alex is reminded of all of horrible things mari has seen in the past, the massive holes left in her heart from either people leaving or circumstances not panning out in the worst possible way. it's just made ten times worse knowing that alex can't do anything to help her. it makes her feel useless. "by that logic, my greatness in my sport will never last, something terrible is going to happen to each of my family members, and the world is going to end in five months! you can't predict everything, mari, and you definitely can't predict what i'm going to do." especially since alex has typically prided herself on being unpredictable. "do you think i haven't looked at you - seen you - well enough to know what you are?" she forgoes the hypothetical altogether, knowing now that 'love' clearly doesn't have a spot in this space between them. "fine," she finally lets go of the taut rope between them, literally throwing her hands up in the air. "all-knowing ruler of the world," with incredible amounts of sarcasm, "i will happily fuck off to do laundry."

"if it would be so much easier if i were, alex. if we were just fucking around, if we were just friends with benefits, without any other thought of what we could be, things would be fine!" it's an explosive outburst, teeth gritting and bitterness seething through her. why couldn't it be the case that her and alex could have kept things simple? why did they have to fall in love? that could only set them up for tragedy. mari had never seen an example of love that lasted in the end. her biological father had left, her stepfather had died and she had found him, and none of her siblings had lasting relationships either. she had never wanted to experience a romantic love like this. the kind that overtook everything else, that seemed to define her very being. her heart had been given away, and it was so much safer when she could lock it into a cage. "nothing good ever lasts, alex! i'm no savant, but i know enough to see how this ends." before they had even properly begun, she has no hope to latch onto. "so you know what? you're right! this is pointless." she watches as alex steps away, as her resolve crumbles, and her fingers leave indents into her elbows. this is supposed to be what she wants, but the hurt radiating through her is like a wildfire that threatens to burn down everything. "because even if you love me, even if i love you," it's a hypothetical, not an admission, just to prove her point. "you can't handle me. not long-term. you know why? because i would never ask you to. because i know what i am, okay? i know what i'm destined for, and it's not the greatness, not the success, that you are standing on the steps of."

[eosofspades]

i didn't have "i'm broken" teenage asexual angst i had "i'm literally being the only reasonable one about this concept and the rest of you are behaving like fucking freaks" perception issues

[ochiody]

theyre literally already married

[konkeez]

i like the headcanon of swansea serving, so here's a little thing!! i was gonna design his wife....then didn't. maybe next time.

(i suppose this is an AU where everything is fine and the crew gets home!)

[agave]

as a root vegetable, parsnip naturally desires to return to the earth 🌏🥕

[hinamie]

to moving forward

[frownyalfred]

“when Dick Grayson becomes a detective in Blüdhaven, it takes time to adjust to not being able to break the laws to get evidence or confessions” versus the far superior “when Dick Grayson becomes a detective in Blüdhaven, it takes time to adjust to the fact that all of his coworkers are horribly incompetent when it comes to obtaining and preserving evidence and it turns out all of Bruce’s anal retentiveness about crime scenes, chain of custody for evidence, and contamination was actually for a very good reason and puts Batman 10-20 years ahead of any modern police department”

[jvledrn]

[uncanny-tranny]

I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.

I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:

Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)

Getting the décor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' décor section and I adore it)

Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often

Eat dessert first

Celebrate well, and often

Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)

Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.

Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate

Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)

Walk without having a specific destination or goal

Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.

I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.

[i-cant-swim-actually]

bro what if we fit together like puzzle pieces bro what if we just lay down and like test it out bro you never know

[moonyistired]

kris deltarune in some outfits i thought they'd like

[egophiliac]

don't think I'm not still obsessing over 7-12

[noodles-and-tea]

Just some more thoughts on that jayvik dbh au

[xpurplepiex]

found out about the existence of this pairing like a month ago and im already in love with these two <33

[snuize]

I found a tf2 puzzle in a comic book store

AND THE PIECES ARE SHAPED LIKE THIS???

[bajaja-blast]

you dislike Luke Castellan because he disagreed with an oppressive government system and actually took action to change the abusive ways him and his peers have been forced to follow for millennia.

I dislike Luke Castellan because in the Titans Curse he manipulated Annabeth, who he raised as his little sister, into holding up the sky, the FUCKING sky, for over 20 hours and had the audacity to walk away as though he was completely apathetic towards it while she begged and pleaded with him to help her.

we are not the same.